can't sleep

For the past days, I couldn't sleep early even if I wanted to. There are just a lot of things bothering me right now. I've given it much thought but it seems like I don't feel peaceful. At this point, I just wanna be some place else... Probably go to the beach and take a long walk along the sea shore. That might clear my head. But I think what I really prefer is to take that walk with my honey. I guess spending time with him is what I really need to feel better... to feel at ease. I just don't know when that will be. :(

Anyways, just to make my mood lighter, I thought of consulting Facebook's "God wants You to Know" application, hehehe. And here's what I've got:

"On this day of your life, we believe God wants you to know ...
that when you come to a wall, you can either climb it,
or you can simply walk around until you find a door.
Don't make life so hard, - look for the doors!"

I guess that means I should not be so hard on myself and try not to make things complicated. So I better stop worrying then. Oh, Lord, I pray for wisdom that I may be able to find those doors.

got no jealous bone

Just to pass the time, I thought of taking a quiz from BlogThings. And so, I took the Are You A Jealous Woman quiz. I actually know from the start that I'm not the jealous type. Or if I do get jealous, I don't make a big deal out of it and just shrug the feeling off especially that I know I have no reason to be jealous. But just for fun and just to check if I've changed over the past few months, I took the quiz, hehehe. And here's the result:

Not a Jealous Bone in Your Body

You're secure, trusting, and giving with friends and lovers And while you may have been hurt before, you've bounced back You're generally happy with your life - and no one's grass is greener than yours One word of caution: some may see your lack of jealousy as indifference!

Are You A Jealous Woman?

So.... It's confirmed! I really don't have any jealous bone in my body, hehehe. But the last sentence hit me because it is true, hehehe. Some people did tell me that my lack of jealousy could mean that I'm indifferent. Oh well, I'm not really indifferent. It's just that I don't get jealous easily; or if I do (like I said earlier), I don't give too much weight into it and just shrug it off especially if I'm confident that I have no reason to be jealous. ^_^ Is that a good thing or a bad thing?

my style is bohemian.. cool!

I'm feeling bored with work now even though am down to my last task for the day. So to make me feel a bit energized, I decided to take a few minutes of distraction, hehehe. My distraction involved two things -- food (I sooo love eating, hehe) and answering online quizzes especially from BlogThings. This time around I took the "What's Your Style Type?" quiz. It only contained a few questions so it didn't take me a long time to answer it. So here's the result...

Your Style is Bohemian

When it comes to fashion, anything goes for you... especially if it's whimsical and fun. You draw your style influences from all over, and you are a pro at mixing and matching. You believe that fashion rules are meant to be broken. You don't need anyone to tell you what looks good. You rock your own unique and free spirited style. And many people secretly envy you for it.

What's Your Style Type?

I kinda liked the result, hehehe. Some of the descriptions suit me well especially the part where it indicated that I'm a pro at mixing and matching. It really is true because I love to mix and match clothes, shoes and accessories. Nice quiz!

A Happy Heart on VDay

Since I already logged in to add Laling's blog -- Inside Thoughts -- in my Blogroll, I thought of making a short post to commemorate this special day. Uh-huh, you heard me right or make that you read me right, hehehe. Today is indeed a special day because we're celebrating Valentine's Day. As I write this, I could already feel or sense that love is in the air. It seems that this day gives you that unexplainable feeling of happiness, inspiration or optimism despite the current turmoil that you're going through in your life -- be it in relationships, family-related or work-related concerns. So to all of you (whether you're in a relationship or not), I wish that may your day be filled with so much happiness and love. I believe that this day is not only for lovers. This is also a day that you celebrate with your family, your friends, and even yourself. Yep, that's right! Why? Because today, we're celebrating the meaning or the value of L-O-V-E. And love is not only limited to relationships with your special someone or with your family and friends. It also refers to the love that you give to yourself. Besides, you can't give something that you don't have, right? So love yourself first before loving others. Ain't that a great reason to celebrate? ;;)

Anyways, am done saying my piece here, hehehe. Time for me to say goodbye as I need to get back to work already. May all of you have a happy heart today and every single day! Hugz! >:D< >:D< >:D<

am sad... dunno why...

i feel sooooo sad today but i don't know why... i'm probably missing someone or expecting that someone to do something for me... waaaaahhh... confusing, right? me, too... i'm confused with what i'm feeling right now... i'm just sad... or feeling lonely, perhaps? dunno... hopefully, i'll feel better soon... i guess i just need to close my eyes and take 10 deep breaths for me to feel fine, hehehe... i hope that works... :-<

don't know where to start

Wow! I just realized that it's already been 14 months and 6 days (to be exact, hehe) since the last time I wrote in this blog. Because of that realization, I honestly do not know where to start or what to say. A lot of my friends at work, especially Ate Maia of Maia's Scribbles, have been reminding me once in a while to update my blog already but I just didn't feel like writing yet, hehe; or maybe I've just come to accept the fact that whether I update my blog or not, they still know what's going on with my life, hahaha. Now that I feel like updating this blog, I can't put anything into writing because there are sooooo many things that are going through my mind at this time and I don't know which ones to entertain, hahaha. Oh well, I guess I need to park my pen for now, just for now, until I get to sort things out so I could compose my thoughts more clearly... ^_^

saturday blues

It is still a work day for me today. However, I don't feel like working at all! I feel kinda lazy and my mind just drifts to doing something else. Like go for a walk, take a swim, watch a movie, read a book, listen to music, or just curl up on my bed and sleep. Hahay... I just feel like doing anything besides work, hehehe. Oh well, I may just be feeling tired because I've been trying to reach our quota for the past few days. Hopefully, this will pass... Well, this feeling should pass soon or else I won't get any work done today, hehehe.

Alright, have to end my rants for now and try to focus on what needs to be done today. Wish me luck, guyz!

just a bit of catching up

Oooohhh... I know... I know... It's been a month since I last updated my site. So sorry about that. I've been caught up with a lot of things lately which includes work and family responsibilities. But to give you a quick update, here's what I've been doing for the past couple of weeks (as far as I can remember, hehehe):

• *** Earlier parts of April (around the first two weeks), I've been so busy with work because it was crunch time for our team. We had to double our efforts just to ensure that we get our quota before the month ends.
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• *** Second, my Aunt and Uncle from Australia arrived around the 17th of April to spend their summer vacation here. Prior to their arrival, my family have been so busy cleaning the house, rearranging things and the list goes on and on and on, hehe. You do know that this usually happens in every Filipino household, right? Especially when relatives from other countries or other places come for a visit, hehe.
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• *** Third, my Ate and her family also arrived from Davao. They arrived around the 24th. Then, they were off to Camiguin on the 25th along with my parents and other relatives since that's where they wanna spend the summer break. Uh-huh, your heard me right. It's only my parents and relatives. I was left here at home, huhu.
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• *** Fourth, while all of them are enjoying their stay in Camiguin, I was left home alone. I had to stay behind to work, to watch over the house and to do some chores. For almost a week, I felt like a stay-at-home mom. I even remember that my officemate and friend, Ann, welcomed me into the world of "home-maker-hood," hehe. I was actually scheduled to be with my family on the 30th but changed my plans the last minute due to a lot of factors, huhu.
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• *** Fifth, I spent time with my honey on his special day. We attended mass together with his mom and dad on the 23rd. Then we had a dinner date at a seafood restaurant as my birthday treat for him. But his birthday celebration didn't stop there. We had another one. This time around it was his Kuya's treat for him. We had a lunch date together with his family in a Filipino restaurant. We all had a great time over good food and wonderful conversation.
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• *** And lastly, even if I missed out on the Camiguin trip, I still decided to enjoy my leave from work. Yep, I filed for leave so I could be with my family but had to change plans. So sad. And because of that, I decided to take a break from all the stress and have an overnight stay at Basamanggas Resort with my cousin and my honey. It turned out great. We all had fun and we really were able to unwind.

So that's about it... I wasn't really busy, right? Hahaha. Oh well, all I could say is that I may have missed out on the Camiguin trip but I still had my own share of fun times. However, in the next summer vacay, I should be joining them... Hopefully...

taking it slow

For the past couple of weeks, I have been really busy with work because our team needs to reach the monthly quota among other things. It's just today that my tasks are a little bit light so I just took this day slowly, hehe, since tomorrow will be another long day. Sigh.

However, I'm feeling excited today. Why? Because there's only about an hour left before I finally log out from work then I'm off to the city with my mamie, nephew and cousin-in-law to unwind... Yipee! I soooo wanted to have this time out and what a better way to spend it than be with my love ones. Right? :D

I Missed Out on RP's Concert

... Too bad. tsk tsk tsk... But I had my reasons, hehe. ;))

If I hadn't gone to SM last Saturday (Feb 28), I wouldn't know that "The Big Band Crooner" -- Mr. Richard Poon -- is in town and will be having a concert on that same day at around 7pm. I think it was a fundraising event for two charitable institutions. It was a concert organized by Sen. Migz Zubiri, Gov. Oca Moreno and Dunkin Donuts along with other major sponsors. It's been my wish to see RP sing live because I love the way he sings the ballads and gives out his own rendition of the songs.

However, like I said earlier, I had my reasons for missing out the concert. And what would that be? Aside from the fact that I only knew of it when I got to SM, it was also that same day where I get to spend time with my one and only honey after having some misunderstanding which lasted for more than a week, hehe. I terribly miss him and I soooo wanted to talk to him nah. Kaya my honey comes first before any other celebrity, hehe. Even if I wasn't able to watch RP that night, I still had a great day because my honey and I were able to resolve our problem. And like any other couple, the moment you get to reconcile whatever issues you have, your relationship with each other becomes sweeter and your love for each other grows even more. Charmos!! But well, that's how I felt (or make that we, hehe).

Now, I'm hoping once again that RP will have another concert here. As to when? That I'll have to wait and see, hehe. I just got one wish though... That I'll be able to know his schedule ahead of time so that I could work out my plans and watch it with my honey... :D

the warrior is a child

Today, with a lot of things rushing through my mind, all I could think of was a song from Gary Valenciano entitled The Warrior is a Child. I just feel so drained and so torn right now. I don't know what to do or what to think of. It's just that at this point I could totally relate to the song. No matter how strong or brave you are, there are times that you just wanna seek refuge and find solitude especially if you've been through some pain and hurt. People may see you as someone courageous yet they don't know what you really go through just to face your own personal battles. Only your closest friends or relatives would know. But at times, you don't even want to share it with them because you don't want them to get burdened by it. So there's only one person whom you can rely and that is God. He sees everything that you experience; read what is in your mind; and feel what is in your heart. With Him, you can just surrender everything, be weak for a moment and just find refuge...

For those who are not familiar with the song, here is the lyrics:

Lately I've been winning battles left and right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I'm amazing
Strong beyond my years
But they don't see inside of me
I'm hiding all the tears

And they don't know
that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know
who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
'Cause deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child

Unafraid because His armor is the best
But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest
People say that I'm amazing
Never face retreat
But they don't see the enemies
That lay me at His feet

And they don't know
that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know
who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
'Cause deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child

And they don't know
that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know
who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and look up for a smile
'Cause deep inside this armor
Deep inside this armor
Deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child

And for those who haven't heard it yet, you can find the video in YouTube.

This song has somewhat inspired me that I always have someone to count on and that I could always seek for solitude every time I feel down...